One of Gatlin's favorite things is string or beaded necklaces. He loves to make them dance. My brother suggested that maybe he was going to be a puppeteer. He said we should get him some puppets. He is very particular about the string or beads that he uses. They have to be a certain length and twirl just right or he is not happy. It is a funny little thing that he does but it keeps him happy and we do not mind. Gabriel is very into cause and effect type actions. He favorite thing to do is throw shoes or toys down the stairs. He will sometimes throw the dirty clothes hamper down the stairs too. Yeah, he gets in trouble for that one.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Embracing
I am just like everyone else and I have my good days and my bad. I am a private person and I don't usually like to discuss things that are bothering me. After the boy's diagnosis, I have tried to stay as positive as I could and only have meltdowns with Matt or my mom. Anytime, I call my mom and we talk for a long time my dad will ask, "Is she have another "autism" day?" My mom will listen, give me a pep talk and I am usually good for awhile. Matt and I have decided that the Lord is really testing our patience and our strength. Today, I was feeling down because Kaia was giving me a run for my money and I just wondered why I couldn't have just one easy child? This got me going again with the why does my children have to be autistic? And what have I done wrong? Or what am I not doing? Blah, Blah, Blah... I called my mom wondering what I could do with Kaia. (I should admit she is just like I was when I was younger so I always turn to my mom for help.) After giving me some advice, I started feeling down about the boys again. My mom said something to me that really stuck out. She told me to embrace my boys and to stop comparing them to other children. She suggested that I take pictures and capture them in these moments because they might change. Who cares if what they do is quirky and not "normal". They are my boys. God sent them to us for a reason and as hard as it may be I should feel blessed. She is so right.
One of Gatlin's favorite things is string or beaded necklaces. He loves to make them dance. My brother suggested that maybe he was going to be a puppeteer. He said we should get him some puppets. He is very particular about the string or beads that he uses. They have to be a certain length and twirl just right or he is not happy. It is a funny little thing that he does but it keeps him happy and we do not mind. Gabriel is very into cause and effect type actions. He favorite thing to do is throw shoes or toys down the stairs. He will sometimes throw the dirty clothes hamper down the stairs too. Yeah, he gets in trouble for that one.
One of Gatlin's favorite things is string or beaded necklaces. He loves to make them dance. My brother suggested that maybe he was going to be a puppeteer. He said we should get him some puppets. He is very particular about the string or beads that he uses. They have to be a certain length and twirl just right or he is not happy. It is a funny little thing that he does but it keeps him happy and we do not mind. Gabriel is very into cause and effect type actions. He favorite thing to do is throw shoes or toys down the stairs. He will sometimes throw the dirty clothes hamper down the stairs too. Yeah, he gets in trouble for that one.
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7 comments:
LOVE the video...makes me miss ya'll even more.....few more months..yeah
So cute. I love your boys. God wanted to protect them here on Earth. To me it means they were amazingly valiant and special in the pre-existence. Lucky you to be their mom. I also believe we are given the kids we are given for reasons. You are an amazing mom. Seriously.
Sarah you are an AMAZING mother. Keep up the good work. Your children are beautiful. Miss you guys.
Loved the video as well and would love to see more. It is always hard not to compare your children to others and wonder what you are doing wrong. Just remember all children grow at different paces, autistic or not, and just embrace them at their stages.
Really wish we lived closer so we could be apart of those boys lives.
I agree especially with Brimaca. I also believe that we made covenants with our children in the pre-existence, that we would try our best to care for them no matter what. Keep up the good work. You are a great mother!
Sarah, you are amazing. I'm sure it is totally normal to have those feelings and I really think that sometimes it is perfectly ok to have those feelings. You are so strong and such an example. Thank you for showing other mothers what it means to be faithful, dedicated, and loving. Your kids are so cute and I wish yall lived closer! We'll be praying for your patience with that silly girl!
All our kids make us feel inadequate. They make us wonder if we are getting it right. They make us turn to the Lord. What a blessing children are.
I've seen your parenting first hand. It is amazing.
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